Search found 21 matches
- Tue Jul 27, 2004 11:25 pm
- Forum: General discussion of SES
- Topic: Who was Leon MacLaren?
- Replies: 5
- Views: 11785
Scary bloke. Yellow eyes like a goat. Atmosphere of Secret Masonic London Clubs. Heard him yelling once, you could hear him through the whole house "Do you call this service ?!!". Probably found a fly in his decanter. One of the few times I ever had a human conversation with our own Big Master. We a...
- Thu Jul 22, 2004 8:19 pm
- Forum: St James and St Vedast
- Topic: Does this forum help you get over the experience?
- Replies: 22
- Views: 30237
Hi Daffy, I hope that doesn`t mean you`re going to disappear before I have chance to say this to you. I absolutely did not mean to insult or belittle your pain and anger in any way at all. If I appeared to be flippant, it`s just my style, or lack of it. I was trying to illustrate the confusion I sti...
- Tue Jul 20, 2004 6:27 pm
- Forum: St James and St Vedast
- Topic: Does this forum help you get over the experience?
- Replies: 22
- Views: 30237
Meikl/Abel, this thread is about whether this website helps former child pupils of St James and St Vedast get over the trauma, not about the experiences of consenting adult members of the SES who are free to leave at any time. If you have not been a prisoner of the children's schools the way Tom Gr...
- Mon Jul 19, 2004 11:07 pm
- Forum: St James and St Vedast
- Topic: Does this forum help you get over the experience?
- Replies: 22
- Views: 30237
Hi Abel, thanks for your thoughts, if the following sounds a bit depressive it`s `cos it`s late and I`ve got a cold and my band`s playing concert`s without me. the main tools in the "pursuit of truth" are your OWN vision of truth, developed and refined by personal judgement, your critical faculties ...
- Mon Jul 19, 2004 3:57 am
- Forum: St James and St Vedast
- Topic: Does this forum help you get over the experience?
- Replies: 22
- Views: 30237
Every time I come back here and read this stuff I go away reeling. I remember getting up before dawn and meditating in the stillness of the sunrise and the first birdsong. I remember the inhuman cold stupidity of some of the disciplines. I remember being manipulated in my young and inexperienced vul...
- Tue May 11, 2004 10:25 pm
- Forum: Housekeeping
- Topic: Welcome to new server and What went wrong?
- Replies: 12
- Views: 18609
- Tue May 11, 2004 10:05 pm
- Forum: General discussion of SES
- Topic: why u hate/love the SES
- Replies: 46
- Views: 57082
Meikl, do you really need to be a member of a religious cult to experience those "moments of pure, silent joy"? That`s what I keep asking myself. I think that working with a group of like-minded people probably makes it easier. Anyway, such moments are gifts and probably addictive if overly indulge...
- Tue May 11, 2004 10:04 pm
- Forum: General discussion of SES
- Topic: why u hate/love the SES
- Replies: 46
- Views: 57082
Re: another thought for Meikl
guest wrote:Maybe there isn't a Conclusion.
I`ll drink to that
Thanks for the thoughts.
Peace
Meikl
- Tue May 11, 2004 2:38 pm
- Forum: General discussion of SES
- Topic: why u hate/love the SES
- Replies: 46
- Views: 57082
Re: Question for Meikl
You wrote - "I don't really understand what you are saying. Are you saying that you went through doubt and fear to come out the other side as a better "happy" person?" No, that`s nothing like what I meant. In a nutshell, I suppose what I meant was that my feelings are deep and mixed, and I tried to ...
- Sat May 08, 2004 8:43 pm
- Forum: General discussion of SES
- Topic: why u hate/love the SES
- Replies: 46
- Views: 57082
And Part Three before I go to bed. We were once on retreat in one of the houses in South England - Stanhill Court I believe. The central theme of the week was to do with pure sound, and specifically the Sanscrit sibilants. There had been a drought in England the whole week.Two-inch baths and save th...
- Sat May 08, 2004 8:09 pm
- Forum: General discussion of SES
- Topic: why u hate/love the SES
- Replies: 46
- Views: 57082
How do I feel about SES? Part Two. Thank you for asking. Gives me a chance to try`n get this straight in me own head. OK, even if I did draw all the monsters myself, there were still people in the school who took advantage of my naive vulnerability to manipulate me into staying with the group and su...
- Sat May 08, 2004 7:15 pm
- Forum: General discussion of SES
- Topic: why u hate/love the SES
- Replies: 46
- Views: 57082
I don`t know why I joined this forum, whether I wanted to vent a bit of spleen, or clear up those bits of my psychic entrails that are still dangling about after my traumatic exit from SES all those years ago. At any rate I have found it to be be a very strange experience, reading the articles from ...
- Thu Apr 01, 2004 12:13 am
- Forum: General discussion of SES
- Topic: I have some questions
- Replies: 25
- Views: 33909
With respect, have you considered dropping the hypothetical structures and attending to the underlying theme/s? Allegory is a tool like any other, and it can support a person for quite a long time when the abstract is too, well...abstract. Could be that I got carried away by debate-fever there. As ...
- Tue Mar 30, 2004 12:17 am
- Forum: General discussion of SES
- Topic: I have some questions
- Replies: 25
- Views: 33909
- Mon Mar 29, 2004 12:02 am
- Forum: General discussion of SES
- Topic: I have some questions
- Replies: 25
- Views: 33909
following your conscience means you don't knowingly do anything to harm anyone else or more generally "Motivation deriving logically from ethical or moral principles that govern a person's thoughts and actions"; Ach, "anti-SES". Sorry, I can be devastatingly dense sometimes. Maybe that`s why I`m st...